Evaluation of Performance

My scene had a sense of reflection (one of the themes in the play) which lasted within every character, even when we were not speaking. This is something which if I could re-do the scene I would explore more and play with presence on stage before or after my dialogue is over, because I think when I look at everyday conversations an natural human behaviour, the 'stop-start/ enter-speak-exit' way that we sometimes approach scenes is not accurate at all. So I would just explore the style in more depth.

Specific things that didn't go to plan were minor blocking movements which Ryan and I tried to convey as natural as possible- one small struggle we faced was making our stance seem natural when making sure we were visible to the audience's direction. One other thing was that there seemed to be a little bit of confusion shown through eye contact between Beth and I at our table section of the scene which although didn't result in any mistakes, was a doubt that made us come out of character ever so slightly.

To overcome this next time I would perhaps arrange a signal with group members in case lines were forgotten- otherwise we should trust that we know the lines and we're just holding a pause for dramatic effect.

However, I thought the scene went very well and enjoyed the attention to detail naturalistic acting requires.  

Props & Costume

I chose to use a bag in my scene which I start to pack in slight rage when Jimmy rejects my affection at one point in the scene. I feel this is convincing and a way in which a lot of people deal with things- through actions and or domestic tasks  when feeling discomfort. I also wanted to remain on stage for a short while after my last line (which suggests my exit) because I thought while Helena was remaining on stage it just reinforced the theme of presence that each character has in relation to one another- in some way or another when coupled together all have distresses caused by the third's presence. In Helena's case- she feels her love for Jimmy is disrupted by the love between him and Alison and vice versa.

For costume I decided to wear a casual shirt which reflected the comfort of Helena living in the household at the beginning of the scene, which also highlights the theme of contentment that all characters feel at one point or another throughout the play- in relationship to each other, in society and or in the household itself.

Helena's Epiphany

There is a point in the play, in the last scene that I am doing where Helena suddenly realizes her place in the trio and decides what she wants to do about it- move out. I like this because the epiphany is organically develops on stage. In rehearsals Beth and I practiced creating tat raw emotion and I wanted to portray that Helena's though process was happening on stage in the moment. By doing this, I understood the importance of acting when not saying lines, which could arguably be more important that acting when saying lines. This is something Stanilslanski highlights- that if the actor becomes the character on stage and commits to their thought process, the emotions should reflect outwardly- and even if you appear to be doing nothing on stage that is better than becoming false and trying to represent the emotions through constructing facial expressions through association of what we think we know.

Directors Notes #1 | Speech

Although I was aiming to play Helena's character with an RP/Standard English accent I find myself still struggling with some vowel sounds- particularly 'u'. In one of Helena's monologues the word 'utterly' was something that I was struggling to make sound natural and fluid, and my northern accent would be exposed in every attempt. Despite how small the matter was, I realised that if I consciously begin to train myself to develop my RP accent now (at this stage of my education) it will benefit me profusely.

So instead of dismissing the matter and removing the word from my script completely, I was directed to consciously try to improve it and I found after one rehearsal session at home trying to identify the phonological problem in my speech, I feel I am now able to overcome it. Of course it was a small issue, but the principle of dealing with things is something that I notice helps and can help me overcome others.

Units & Objectives | #2 Standing and Tidying

The second application of units and objectives takes place on page 89 when Helena says ‘That’s why everything seems more wrong and terrible…” I decided that if Helena begins to stand and tidy it will show the internal conflict she is feeling. Channeling this internal conflict by trying to show control of her surroundings and that things (domestic, at least) are in order reinforce her struggle. Also, the proxemics of Helen's character at that point show her moral discomfort and by suddenly removing herself from an intimate chat with Alison, this can reflect her feeling of being disloyal and impure with the friendship she appears to have with Alison. It could also reflect Helena removing herself from not just that small situation but the whole relationship dynamic and household situation that is a much bigger scale.

Emotional Memory

The technique of emotional memory is something that I think could genuinely help evoke real emotions in my scene. There are certain points in my scene where, when first beginning to rehearse I noticed myself creating more of a representation of emotion- what we associate with that type of emotion, for example when Helena shouts at Jimmy and when she shows sympathy for Alison I had to refrain from creating a false representation of the emotions. Instead I thought of how I would feel in those situations and have felt before in my own life however serious or mundane the emotions are. After practicing this more in rehearsal I found that it just seemed more natural and the emotions were more genuine because of it.

Applying Units & Objectives | #1 Cup of Tea

The first unit and objective that I have decided to incorporated into my character's stage directions takes place on page 88 when Alison tries to show affection when saying “Oh, Helena, don’t bring out the book of rules” by placing her hand on Helena’s, Beth and I decided that I as Helena should tense up and clench the mug in a nervous state of discomfort (which I think is a theme that rund through the play in many degrees). This could reflect Helena feeling discomfort with her position in the house, and the realisation of this results in her distancing herself from Alison- not wanting to show affection at that moment. Also, the cup of tea here could be a symbol of the comfort in the domestic position Helena has in the house at this point in the play, by her clenching it tightly it shows how she has been and still is holding onto that comfort. Because this is shortly after Helena decides to announce her departure this reflects the internal conflict and the fact that throughout that scene Helena didn't finish that cup of tea with enjoyment mirrors how she also abandoned the comfort that her role in the house once brought to her as well.